October 1st, 2006

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I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough


Whether I can or I can't, I'm going to chuck some words out there. No doubt they'll have as much relivance to my life as a jackie chan film watched by sixth formers high on Cigars.

I'll lay something down, I've been very depressed for the last two weeks, very very depressed. I'm struggling to keep it togther to not submitting into rolling into a ball and just not moving till I die. Melodramatic sounding? Perhaps it does, But I think to anyone it'd sound melodramatic coming from me. Because I've never discussed 'whats up' or perhaps I have if you've tracked back trough bloggster, dispensablehero,mafia_boy etc then you do know the ups and downs but nothing of late.

I've very much been fed up of my lot in life for a while and even more so that I live in a place which causes me nothing but stress, I actualy now go to work to 'relax'. This has strained my mood and my relationships elsewhere even being a defining cause in spoiling time spent togther.

And now I'm left here, not truly knowing how I feel, How to say it. But knowing those Three Words aren't enough to fix it.

On to the next post.